picked my path<\/a> a few months back but now I feel like my life has come to a crossroads but instead of having more paths to pick from, I\u2019m surrounded by detour, do not enter and wrong way signs.<\/p>\nI don\u2019t regret the path I picked, definitely not.\u00a0 I\u2019m HAPPY with the decisions I\u2019ve made over the past few months and the way I\u2019m feeling is not a feeling of sadness or anger or frustration.\u00a0 It\u2019s a little like drowning only I\u2019m not feeling overwhelmed, more like underwhelmed.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s like I\u2019ve been abandoned. \u00a0Like I\u2019m alone in a strange place with nowhere to go and no friendly faces in sight.\u00a0 Which is weird because I\u2019m ALWAYS with my children.\u00a0 And this is the most hubby\u2019s been around since we\u2019ve had children.\u00a0 And I have friends (I have friends!) whom I see\/hang out with many days a week.\u00a0 And my family is getting ready to come back to town for the fall.\u00a0 And I\u2019m definitely NOT alone!<\/p>\n
But there is still this looming feeling of distress.\u00a0 Like I\u2019m trapped in quicksand and can\u2019t get out.\u00a0 Maybe not quicksand because I\u2019m not going under.\u00a0 Maybe more like stranded in the middle of the ocean, just treading water with no land, help or future in sight.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m oddly happy, though.\u00a0 I love my life, my days are good.\u00a0 But I lay awake at night, wondering what the future holds.\u00a0 Not tomorrow or next week, but months or years from now.\u00a0 Where will we be?\u00a0 What will I be doing?<\/p>\n
I feel like I can do nothing about where I am, what I\u2019m doing, where I\u2019m going and where I\u2019m going to end up.\u00a0 I\u2019m feeling futureless (and clearly very confused…)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u2019ve been feeling really fragile lately.\u00a0 Like I could break down crying at any moment.\u00a0 Not just emotional like hormones or the usual life stress but more internally distraught. I picked my path a few months back but now I feel like my life has come to a crossroads but instead of having more paths […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6103","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-a-mommys-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6103","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6103"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6103\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6104,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6103\/revisions\/6104"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6103"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6103"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6103"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}