{"id":567,"date":"2013-03-27T08:13:33","date_gmt":"2013-03-27T12:13:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/?p=567"},"modified":"2014-02-17T20:02:31","modified_gmt":"2014-02-18T01:02:31","slug":"sharing-love-and-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/2013\/03\/27\/sharing-love-and-time\/","title":{"rendered":"Sharing Love and Time"},"content":{"rendered":"

When you\u2019re pregnant with your first and then have only the one child, it is easy to feel like you are giving your child everything you have.\u00a0 I always felt when I pregnant with Honeybun\u00a0that I was able to completely focus on her and taking care of both of us, I never felt like I was neglecting her and what she needed.\u00a0 This continued through her first year and even when I became pregnant with Sugarlum I still felt I was able to give both of my children what they needed.\u00a0 I never worried about taking away from Honeybun\u00a0or having to share my love.<\/p>\n

\"DSC00303<\/a>That was, of course, until the Monday after Easter and in the middle of my toughest mommying test yet.\u00a0 We had returned to the states a few weeks after relocating to Dublin in order to see doctors and such.\u00a0 Easter Day was meant to be spent with my Aunt, Uncle and Cousin and started out as any other Easter would.\u00a0 We woke up and let Honeybun\u00a0hunt for her Easter basket.\u00a0 She snacked on a few treats and played with the tools she received.\u00a0 We took tons of pictures and she was in a great mood.<\/p>\n

I went to the kitchen to help my Aunt with breakfast when everything fell apart.\u00a0 I heard hubby scream and looked over to see him holding Honeybun’s\u00a0limp body.\u00a0 She had fallen (we still don\u2019t know why) and hit her head on the very sharp corner of an end table.\u00a0 I rushed over and took her from him and peered into her hanging face which had lost all its muscle tone.\u00a0 Seconds later she began having a seizure.\u00a0 The rest is a bit of a blur but I know I screamed a lot, telling everyone to call 911 and that we needed an ambulance.\u00a0 The seizure stopped just before the ambulance arrived and the 911 operator kept telling hubby that I needed to keep her awake but I couldn\u2019t.\u00a0 When the ambulance finally arrived I ran outside, barefoot in my pajamas and they loaded us both in.<\/p>\n

Luckily all of her vitals were good and after hubby retrieved my shoes and handbag we set off for the hospital. \u00a0Honeybun\u00a0appeared unconscious but the paramedics explained that often after a seizure the person falls into a deep sleep for a short time, a sort of re-set for the brain as they put it.\u00a0 Nothing made me happier than when we pulled in front of the ER and Honeybun\u00a0woke up, pointed and said \u201ccars\u201d.<\/p>\n

\"h<\/a>Despite what seemed like a full recovery to our normal girl, she was still admitted and subjected to numerous tests, \u201cjust to be sure\u201d.\u00a0 This is when the realization of being a mommy of two hit me. \u00a0Honeybun\u00a0required an MRI and I was devastated when I realized I couldn\u2019t go with her because I was pregnant.\u00a0 Luckily hubby was more than willing to sit by her (they knocked her out but she hadn\u2019t been responding well to the anesthesia and I was worried she would wake up before the scan was done).\u00a0 I sat in the hallway and did my best not try cry while thinking about how this would be the first of probably many times I would not be able to be there for Honeybun\u00a0because of the new baby and it broke my heart.\u00a0 I knew I had more than enough love to share but it had not occurred to me prior to this experience how it would affect my\u00a0time and ability to be with Honeybun\u00a0when she needed me.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

While I still have never questioned my capacity to love every person in my life, coming closer to welcoming #3 (and the impending Easter anniversary of our ordeal which still brings tears to the eyes of everyone who was there) has brought on the same realization of lack of time.\u00a0 I\u2019ve definitely not felt like I\u2019ve been able to devote myself to this pregnancy as I did the first two.\u00a0 I do not get to sleep as much as I need and instead of eating what I want, I try to force myself to eat what I want my girls to have which often makes me lose my appetite all together.\u00a0 I also feel like I\u2019m missing out on what my girls are doing and am not providing them with the time and attention they deserve because I am so tired and irritable nearly all the time.<\/p>\n

I have never doubted that a third child would change our lives forever (I mean, I only have two hands\u2026how do I keep 3 children safe?!?!) but it\u2019s hard to even begin to grasp what day-to-day life will be like. \u00a0Honeybun\u00a0will be starting Kindergarten and I worry Sugarplum will get lost in the shuffle (our poor little middle child) of what we have to do for Honeybun\u00a0and meeting the primal needs of \u00a0the baby without spending our entire lives running around and going crazy (I\u2019m not that \u201cbusy is better\u201d kind of mom\u2026more on that another day!).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When you\u2019re pregnant with your first and then have only the one child, it is easy to feel like you are giving your child everything you have.\u00a0 I always felt when I pregnant with Honeybun\u00a0that I was able to completely focus on her and taking care of both of us, I never felt like I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-567","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-baby-business","category-family-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/567","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=567"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/567\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3185,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/567\/revisions\/3185"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=567"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=567"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=567"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}