{"id":5455,"date":"2014-07-25T08:25:00","date_gmt":"2014-07-25T12:25:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/?p=5455"},"modified":"2014-08-22T15:12:35","modified_gmt":"2014-08-22T19:12:35","slug":"just-plain-tired","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/2014\/07\/25\/just-plain-tired\/","title":{"rendered":"Just Plain Tired"},"content":{"rendered":"

Usually I \u201cblog ahead.\u201d\u00a0 I try to write my posts at least a day ahead and just do a little fine tuning before posting them in the morning.\u00a0 Most of my writing happens during nap time, after the kids\u2019 bedtime or in the wee hours of the morning when Doodle decides to wake up unnecessarily early (as he has been doing for the past two weeks).<\/p>\n

But yesterday it didn\u2019t happened at nap time, instead I did something I haven\u2019t done in a long time: I took a nap too. \u00a0For the 45 minutes Doodle actually slept, of course leaving me groggy and miserable the rest of the day.\u00a0 At bedtime?\u00a0 I went to bed too.<\/p>\n

\"IMG00257-20100921-1645\"<\/a>\u00a0I\u2019ve been tired lately. Just plain tired.\u00a0 It makes me grumpy, easily agitated and less than motivated.\u00a0 We got back from a 10-day adventure visiting hubby\u2019s family on Monday morning and I\u2019ve not done much since.<\/p>\n

But it wasn\u2019t just the trip that wiped me out, it\u2019s life.\u00a0 I called hubby yesterday morning crying after I yelled at the girls when they wouldn\u2019t follow directions and the frustration just spewed out of me.\u00a0 I\u2019m not just physically exhausted, I\u2019m tired of the way things are.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired of constantly taking care of other people and their needs while no one looks after mine and I\u2019m tired of not having enough time or energy to look after myself.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired of doing it all and dong it alone.\u00a0 I have no one to help out and no one I can rely on when I desperately need help.\u00a0 I\u2019m on my own and just plain lonely most of the time.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired of the house being criticized for my housekeeping but just don\u2019t care enough to do it while managing three little ones and all their constant needs.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired of not being able to complete even the simplest tasks like doing the dishes or going to the bathroom without having to put out fires.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired of the arguing.\u00a0 Oh, the arguing!\u00a0 The constant questions, pushback and arguing I get from girls about every.single.thing I ask them to do.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired of dreaming of all the things I WANT to do and being unable to achieve any of it because even the thought of trying with three little helpers is overwhelming.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired.\u00a0 Just plain tired.\u00a0 I need a vacation from it.\u00a0 But not like I usually get where I\u2019m still wholly responsible \u00a0for my kids and their needs which is definitely not a vacation at all.\u00a0 I want to be with my kids, I just don\u2019t want to deal with the screaming, arguing, cooking, cleaning and non-sense all the time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Usually I \u201cblog ahead.\u201d\u00a0 I try to write my posts at least a day ahead and just do a little fine tuning before posting them in the morning.\u00a0 Most of my writing happens during nap time, after the kids\u2019 bedtime or in the wee hours of the morning when Doodle decides to wake up unnecessarily […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":5456,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[289,288],"class_list":["post-5455","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-a-mommys-life","tag-a-mommys-life-2","tag-stay-at-home-mommy"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5455","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5455"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5455\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5457,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5455\/revisions\/5457"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5456"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5455"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5455"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5455"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}