{"id":4113,"date":"2014-04-24T06:40:15","date_gmt":"2014-04-24T10:40:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/?p=4113"},"modified":"2014-04-24T06:40:15","modified_gmt":"2014-04-24T10:40:15","slug":"anxious-about-being-away","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/2014\/04\/24\/anxious-about-being-away\/","title":{"rendered":"Anxious About Being Away"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Today is going to be a tiring and possibly very trying day.\u00a0 I will be taking my first all day long road trip since becoming a mommy.\u00a0 Up to now, we\u2019ve never driven with the kids more than a few hours and today\u2019s journey will take us about 9 hours driving time.\u00a0 And I\u2019m doing it by myself.\u00a0 Doodle and I survived our first lone road trip<\/a> last summer with relative ease but this one will be much longer and now that he is older, I worry he will be less tolerant of being restrained for long stretches.\u00a0 Of course, only the day will tell how we fare and thus that will be a post for another day!<\/p>\n

Another first I will be having, though, is leaving the girls.\u00a0 Up to now I\u2019ve only ever spent one night in a different city than my girls (when hubby and I went to Naples<\/a> for our 5th<\/sup> wedding anniversary).\u00a0 And here I am facing five days away.\u00a0 Five morning to nighttimes.\u00a0 And not just across the state like last time, but in a whole other state, 9 hours away!<\/p>\n

We are going to attend the wedding of a dear friend from college and the original plan was to take the whole family.\u00a0 I was going to drive up with Doodle and Sugarplum and hubby and Honeybun were going to fly up after school Friday.\u00a0 Unfortunately hubby had to be away this week at a conference and couldn\u2019t be home in time to bring up Honeybun and I can\u2019t take one girl without the other. (And fortunately my parents are in town and more than willing to help).\u00a0 Thus, it will be a weekend of just hubby, Doodle and me.<\/p>\n

I know a lot of parents love getting away from their kids and to be completely honest, I\u2019m a little jealous of them.\u00a0 I am so filled with anxiety and stress right now it\u2019s ridiculous.<\/p>\n

I trust my parents completely with my children.\u00a0 I know my girls will be fine but there are so many little things.\u00a0 Like what time Honeybun has to be at school and what she needs in her backpack.\u00a0 I\u2019ve done it every.single.day since she started kindergarten.\u00a0 I worry I\u2019ll forget to tell them something and Honeybun is so fragile when things don\u2019t go just right.<\/p>\n

I worry about my girls\u2019 moods becoming too much.\u00a0 They are both in a very \u201cif you say yes, I\u2019ll say no just to be difficult\u201d phase and it seems like 90% of anything you say gets the response \u201cI don\u2019t want to\u201d or \u201cI don\u2019t like\u2026\u201d\u00a0 It\u2019s frustrating, overwhelming and tiring and it pushes me to the edge.\u00a0 I just don\u2019t know how other react and deal with their nonsense.<\/p>\n

But my biggest concern is just being away.\u00a0 I LOVE being with my children.\u00a0 I don\u2019t like being away from them.\u00a0 I like being there to share their moments, to support them in their struggles and celebrate their triumphs.\u00a0 I like being involved in their lives.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know why going away is so traumatizing for me but it is. \u00a0I had babies because I wanted them, I wanted to be with them, I wanted to care for them, I wanted to be around them.\u00a0 Sure I like an occasional night out or sending them to a relatives house for an overnight but being away for 5 whole days, 5 morning to nighttimes is more than I can wrap my head around right now.<\/p>\n

I can\u2019t even imagine what it is going to be like to not hear their voices every place I go.\u00a0 To not feel their sweet kisses or tight cuddles.\u00a0 To not know what they are doing or how they are feeling.\u00a0 I just…I can\u2019t even imagine.<\/p>\n

Are you a \u201cloves to get away\u201d or \u201cloathes to be apart\u201d type mommy?\u00a0 How do you deal with being away from your kids?\u00a0 This mommy sure could use some support and advice right now!<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Today is going to be a tiring and possibly very trying day.\u00a0 I will be taking my first all day long road trip since becoming a mommy.\u00a0 Up to now, we\u2019ve never driven with the kids more than a few hours and today\u2019s journey will take us about 9 hours driving time.\u00a0 And I\u2019m doing […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13,8,15,5,12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4113","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-a-mommys-life","category-baby-business","category-family-ties","category-mommy-time","category-tiny-travellers"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4113","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4113"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4113\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4114,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4113\/revisions\/4114"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4113"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4113"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beyondmommying.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4113"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}