When I was nearly hit by a car walking in a parking lot today, I did my usual half-mumbling under my breath \u201cdon\u2019t worry about the lady crossing the street, I mean why would you stop for a pedestrian especially when it\u2019s raining and you\u2019re nice and dry in your car\u2026\u201d\u00a0 Usually this mumbling includes comments about my being pregnant or the endangerment of my children but this time I was by myself so couldn\u2019t add on those frustrations and realized the guy really had no way of knowing I was even a mom.<\/p>\n
Then I caught a glance of myself as I walked by a shiny window and there it was: the evidence.\u00a0 A few days after Doodle was born Sugarplum asked me what was in my belly now that the baby is out and I told her \u201cnothing, I just have a belly full of jelly now.\u201d\u00a0 She thought this was the funniest thing and still likes to shake my tummy and say \u201cmommy, why is your belly full of jelly?\u201d<\/p>\n
I realize my stomach is not huge but it\u2019s definitely not as flat as it once was.\u00a0 After having Honeybun\u00a0my stomach went flatter than I think it was even before her but not so much after Sugarplum and now after Doodle, the baby weight has not come off as quickly or easily as with the girls.<\/p>\n
But seeing that image of myself today, something changed in my mind.\u00a0 I\u2019ve spent my entire life spending hours staring at myself in the mirror during dance classes and as most do, fell into the habit of obsessing over my body and while I never took extreme or unhealthy actions to correct things I didn\u2019t like, I\u2019ve always known what was what and done what I could.\u00a0 I realized tonight that I may no longer have the body I always wanted, but it doesn\u2019t matter because I have the LIFE I always wanted.\u00a0 Tonight I accepted the fact that while I would love to spend my time in tutus, pointe shoes and tiaras, I am not going to ever be a professional ballerina but I will always be a mommy.<\/p>\n
I realized that reflection I saw was proof that I don\u2019t spend enough time in the gym, that I\u2019m not one of those people that spends all day exercising.\u00a0 But you know what, that\u2019s okay because I spend all day doing play-doh and reading books and eating up every smile my newborn gives me.\u00a0 I am raising my children myself, not leaving that up to a stranger and maybe sometimes I have sacrificed my own well-being for them but I don\u2019t care.\u00a0 I spend my day teaching my children what love is because THAT IS WHAT MATTERS.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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